im having a sudden urge to blog. hmm. also have no idea why. sigh. quite depressed now? duno why too. im not supposed to be. i need to talk to somebody.. knock knock! anybody there? *cricket sounds* i duno what's happening to me.. just kindda weird. not the usual self. even josh says so. why?! i totally just cant wait for the exams to be over.. waiting for the day where guaikias n bimbo can go kbox and sing our heart n lungs out, cant wait for xue sheng ying to come, cant wait for 4j to go to bigwalk together (although not confirmed), cant wait for everything to just fly past me. that's the reason why i'm totally not stressed out by the exams. but, i just dont understand why i just broke down when i realised that i couldn't do the chem mcqs. isit cause the people around me are study freaks, they know everything or isit because i didn't do my part of studying well enough? this feeling just totally sucks. i WANT to do well, but i just cant push myself. and there's nobody there to push me. everybody's so stuck up on books. am i really the only one slacking? i know there's josh. but he's good at humans. im NOT. so totally not. n humans is impt. the rest are easier to score. humans once u suck at it, you're a goner man. and im one of them. it seems so far away. DAMN. I JUST CANT CONCENTRATE! sigh.. looking at my ahma, i want to be her. i just want to slack my whole day away. stone there, rot there, my favourite pastime now, how i wish i could do that. but i bet that my ahma wishes to be me, being busy, at least she knows what to do, she has something to do. SO WHY AM I COMPLAINING?? YES! i should be so freaking glad that im a sec4 and so busy studying and mugging.