was bored so i read chicken soup for the teenage soul III and found something interesting that was quite true for me, so i decided to like post it up for people to read. haha. here goes, enjoy. =)

why girls like guys
1. they always wear your favourite cologne (which happens to be the one that you bought them for their birthday).
2. the way they run their fingers through your hair.
3. that look they give you that maes you just want to die right then and there.
4. they way they kiss away your tears.
5. they way they get mad when they can't make your problem go away.
6. they way they show off around their friends, even though you know you would love him if he missed a basket or two.
7. they way they make it their personal mission to ensure that you are never cold.
8. that confused look they get on their faces when you are mad at them - guaranteed to make youe heart melt and the anger fade away.
9. the way they always let you win any game you play together.
10. ...and when you point this out to them they pretend not to know what you are talking about.
11. that smile they flash that can make your stomach drop to your feet.
12. the way they call to apologise after you had a big fight.
13. the way they touch you and hold you so gently, as if they are afraid they will break you.
14. the way they say, "i love you."
15. the way they would die before saying "i love you" in front of their friends.
16. the way they kiss you.
17. they way they kiss you after making up from a fight.
18. the way they hold you when you are crying.
19. the way they think they are your big protector.
20. the way they say, "i miss you" although they hate to admit it.
21. they way you miss everything about them when they are gone.
22. the way they comfort you when you have had a bad day.
23. the way they write you love letters even if they think it's uncool.
24. regardless of whether you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them... it matters not. because once they enter your life, whatever you were to the world, they become everything to you. when you look thme in the eyes, travelling to the depths of their souls and you say a million things without even speaking, you know that your own life is consumed by their love. we love them for a million reasons; it is a thing, an indescribable feeling.

ok. finally done. before reading this part, i quite often wonder to myself why do i love him. and i always don't get an answer. yet after reading this, what it says is quite true (well, at least most of it) for me. sorry to those who don't have a bf as sweet and nice as mine. =D. haha. but i've realised that i'm quite lucky already. so, tricia, stop complaining! you have a nice bf ok! yups. ok. back to the reasons. uhuh. after reading the last reason, it's just so damn true lah. the feeling of love.. is just so so indescribable. you can't particularly pick out any reasons why you love him, but just that when he's there, you just know why you love him so much. just a simple gaze into his eyes, you just feel like you have just totally fallen again in love with him once again. you'll may be bored by this post by now, but the reason why i'm doing this is because it has already been one year. so i feel the need to like sort of look back into the last year and see what we have gone through. seems like last year is the easiest to pass. same school, not as busy, lots of crap to share etc. this year, sec4 life. we will not be as free as before. but can we endure? next year, will we be in the same jc? if yes, would life be the same as in sec school? if no, can we still maintain the same closeness? after jc, can we get into university? all these stupid questions.. i hate the future.. i totally love my life now. i'm so so satisfied with my life now. wonderful friends, wonderful bf, wonderful family, wonderful everything. i don't see the need for any change. cos i'm TOTALLY satisfied. like what more can i ask for? so to those retarded people out there who keep complaining about how sucky their lives are, please look at the african kids. they don't even have food to eat nor clothes to wear. do you? do you have clean and unpolluted water to drink or a nice comfy home to live in? they don't you know.. i read this email saying that if you have like money in your bank for you to spend or extra money to spend (something like that), you are the world's top 9% richest people.. can you imagine how lucky you are now to live in singapore? having an uncorrupted government ruling that actually cares for the interest of the people? so you'll pessimists, GET A LIFE. stop thinking about how pathetic you are, cos there are ALOT ALOT more people who are far more worse off than you are. so stop complaining about your life, cos your life is GOOD. especially when you can get to read this, you are even better off.

ok. how did i get from our 1st anniversary to this. (btw, 12th june is a nice day=) sorry. i'm just in a sort of bad mood. some thing is just bothering me, this problem has been around for years, but it just can't be solved. but it is not my problem. i wonder how the person lives with it. doesn't A (let's name the person A) feel bad at home? let me ask a question to get you thinking.. would you lie to your parents to do something that they totally object to? i believe that that something is important to A, but it's like.. to me at least, i feel that parents are so much freaking more important than all those. maybe my parents are wonderful parents or something, that's why i love them so freaking much. but no matter what, they ARE YOUR PARENTS. shouldn't you give them that slightest respect of not lying to them even if you think it does you good (at least what A thinks that doing that is for A's own good, personally i think it's ok if no one objects to it).. it's like HELLO.. they are your parents no matter what.. they brought you up, gave you food, cleaned your ass when you didn't know how to.. and now just because you FEEL that it's good for you (i don't feel it's good cos A gave me a feeling that A was being brainwashed. of course A cannot feel it, cos the person in the situation definately cannot feel it and of course i know i'm not in the right position to judge anything, but i'm just writing out what i feel.), you just go ahead and do what you wish to do and feel. if those other people cannot understand the situation you're in and instead ask you to go lie to your parents, do you think they are good people? sigh. the power of peer pressure.. well, the whole point is i feel so bothered cos A is really very important to me and i feel like an accomplice helping A lie to A's parents. i also don't wish to see A and A's parents not having any relationship (although i don't think it's going to happen) after A's parents find out, cos i have this super strong feeling that sooner or later, the whole truth is just going to shine through. so A, if you are reading this, i'm sure you know who you are.. i have also hinted you to come read my blog, i hope that you can think through this thoroughly and hope that you will not allow yourself be moved by what others tell you because do not think that those people are always correct in that aspect. and i hope that you understand why i'm putting you through this, i know it's difficult for you.. but please understand that you are important to me, i don't wish to see you suffer.