yes yes.
i'm feeling so super uber duper namen that i have this strong urge to blog and splat it all out here. :(
recently (these few days),
few things happened and made ALL OF US think that way.
not that ALL OF US want to think that way,
but you made it so obvious that we cannot not think in that way.
but BUT, the whole problem is the that way is so so freaking random and weird.
like ALL OF US were super shocked when you acted like that.
guess i'm not in a position to say you,
guess ppl will say that i'm just thinking too much or feeling jealous,
but seriously,
i just know you too plain well to guess what's on your mind. :)
alot things that i predicted that you would do/say came through.
so i predict that i'm right about this time too. :D
or prolly ALL OF US is wrong about our judgements too. :)
anyway, i shall try my best to not think that way and make myself so namen about it.
but i just want you to know that i care for you as a friend
and hope that you know what you're doing.
cos at this crucial period of time,
you're supposed to be focussing on more impt stuff like studies and not that.
FYI, don't think that your results have improved and just rest on your laurels.
bcos it's not good enough!
pls slap yourself awake and take a look at the competition going around in the JCs islandwide,
esp in high-end JCs like RJ HCI VJ etc.
(febgyi knows the power of a newspaper article and is working hard now!
and i can see it, so i'm damn proud of you,
xiao long mushroom lim siao da bi zi! :D
your no.1 fan adores you!)
they are alr a notch above us,
yet they still are much more hardworking than most of us.
so how can you compete with them with such mediocre results?
ask yourself, are you just satisfied with a B?
i bet you will definitely say no,
but what effort have you put in to show that desire for an A?
nothing, absolutely nothing at all.
at least to me and many others.
we are all concerned for you,
but whatever we say don't seem to work,
hai. so what can we do, other than sitting back and looking, hoping for the best? :(
but at least, i can see improvement.
that's a step forward alr.
hope you do better,
and everyone else too!:D

anyway, talking about results.
got back chem MPT paper ytd.
although to others my results may seem good,
but i'm just not satisfied with it.
i came out feeling confident that i could get ard 70%.
but results came out and proved otherwise. :(
that's why i'm kindda disappointed.
i'm sorry to those who scored worse than me,
but this is what i'm really feeling.
and you must understand cos i know i can do better,
just that i dunno why this kindda results. hai. :(
but looking at the bright side of things,
18/07 did fairly well!
and i'm so proud of you ppl!
like really. :)
no Us this time round, only probably ard 3 Ss
(and those ppl don't really bother to me. haha!)
so happy that our class did really well!
like 8th in standard overall! WOOHOO YIPEE! :)
continue studying hard ppl,
cos we can do it! :D
oya. the cohort meeting today was kindda scary.
they keep saying that our seniors did well,
but alot sources cited otherwise. lolls.
so i dunno who to trust..-.-
they kept emphasising the need for us to start early and clear all doubts fast,
and study for like 2-3hours on weekdays and 6-8hours on weekends.
wow. as if i have that much time/energy lah! OMG.
i guess i will try,
but i'm afraid that i might break down soon.
not feeling stressed, but scared. :(
probably Alvls and about U admission too. HAI.
just put in my best and hope for the best,
just wish that i don't screw up my As like how i did for my Os. :(

ROAR. i realised that this post and getting long and drony.
shall end off here,
though i have lots of things in my mind. :(