still have been freaking busy the past week that i'm neglecting my studies like nobody's business :(
now i finally understand how lost and helpless dong/yuang felt when studying.
there's like so many things to study/touch that you dunno how to start from.
so bottomline is: don't slack during school days so that work won't pile up.
BUT i just can't bring myself to do that cos i'm just too tired or totally don't have time to do tutorials.
argh. contradicting myself.
i'm sorry, teachers whom i've disappointed. :(
HC camp's tmr.
Titans coming up next tues to thurs.
GO BETA KNIGHTS! WE CAN DO IT!
WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS! :D

i've decided to dedicate this post to someone cos i really can't bear to continue looking without doing anything.
i know it's bad to talk behind others' back.
but now i have no time to talk to someone,
BUT I WILL! soon. i promise. :)
i can't bear to see the hurt in my mama. :(
poor mama! I LOVE YOU MAMA! :D

hi to someone.
do you know that your selfish acts have hurt/angered/disgusted alot alot ppl ard you?
i dunno, but maybe this is you.
and i haven't seen this side of you cos this matter have not happened to you before.
seriously, i'm not namen over the fact that you do those disgusting actions.
i mean i don't care what you two want to do,
it's none of my business.
but i just hate, UTTERLY ABHOR the fact that you do this at the expense of others.
don't you even care what goes on ard you?
why do you expect everyone to be ard you, to be there for you when you don't do that to others?
ISN'T THAT PURE SELFISH BEHAVIOUR?
i really don't understand what has gotten into you.
i used to think that you were sensitive and that's why i doted on you so much.
but now, i dunno if you do all that on purpose or you just turn a blind eye to it.
i'm so fucking turned off by you now that i don't know how to face you normally now.
i dunno if you can feel it,
but if you happen to read this,
i really hope that you can think through your actions and reflect upon yourself.
don't drop any tears thinking that we betrayed you or whatsoever,
because you are not fit to feel that well.
we were the ones who felt betrayed by you first.
the amount of tears shed by my poor mama,
the anger we felt,
the hurt caused to us.
you are not fit to shed a single tear, NOT AT ALL.
i know this sounds really serious and mean.
well, i am.
but i really can't take it anymore.
i can't bear to see ppl getting hurt by you anymore.
i can't look into your eyes normally when talking to you anymore.
:(