Saturday, November 6, 2010
lost.
being bored of school and life has led me to this post.
lack of posts recently due to being clouded by many activities.
been questioning my own ability for the past few days,
thinking about my future and what i'm going to do next has led me into a pit full of question marks.
majorly questioning myself and asking myself what i am doing all these for.
for now, i still can't see the light at the end of the tunnel.
still searching within myself, still searching for my greatest strength and my strongest passion.
without these two, i cannot proceed and work while staying happy.
sometimes i wonder how can some ppl take up responsibilities just because it reflects well upon them and not because they really think that they can do a good job.
i just feel that doing that is super irresponsible.
but oh well, life is that unfair isnt it.
blame on myself for not being so ambitious.
like a struggle to survive and not giving up my ideals.
for one, i realised that scars and failure are not necessarily a bad thing.
failing doesnt equate to sth bad.
it just adds on to your life story and merely makes you someone with more stories to tell.
that is sth so important, i realised.
and that is what makes experience so invaluable.
it's sth that can't be taught or learnt, it is sth that you have to personally experience it yourself.
trying hard to accumulate my own experiences so that i can be someone full of stories. :)